Full moon and Shining Star

2008-04-13T02:06:00.003+08:00

now really got my time mess up.... day time sleep and night time i am siting in front of the computer do all my stuff.. i like a 宅女... hahaha...

wake up 3.45 pm today.... it was raining heavily... the thunder really got me frighten... i feel so not right while i am asleep.... the thunder were so loud that got my brain wake up... it mean that i am still physically asleep... the thunder continually strike for a few time... and i donno why i start to pray to the god.. saying that "god, i know we human have make u angry... please calm down.... i apologise the sin i made...". i jus donno y i did it.. after a while, i heard no thunder and i fall back to sleep...
wake up at 3 plus then go town to meet my dad for dinner... as usual my dad is the hippest dad... always go to kunokuniya to buy his newspaper... wahaha!!have Korea cuisine at the taka food court... the best korean food in town... haha... then when to ang mo kia, my mother house, i say tat i will drop by... then 11 plus then go home..

i actually have a dream today... i dream of vampire.. No, i will rephrase it... i often dream of vampire and make me wonder wat that mean.... cause some pple say that dream actually symbolise something in ur past or future or ur desire and so on.... so i went to check it out... jus search in the net and i fond this

Vampire

Seeing a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic for someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship. Dreaming that you are a vampire means that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit.

so that was it...

i didnt dream of myself being a vampire so i not sucking in the ife energy of other for my own selfish benefit... so u guy don worry... hahaha.. and wat the meaning of be friend with vampire... betraying myself? hahas... that jus come across my mind...

and wat about... from young till now i always dream of skeleton frog hopping toward me (so i think u know why i so scare of frog now)... so i search it too

Frog

To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential to change or to do the unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise. Alternatively, the frog may suggest uncleanness.

To see frogs leaping in your dream, may indicate your lack of commitment. You have the tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal.

To dream that you are catching a frog, signifies your carelessness concerning your health.

To hear the sounds of a frog in your dream, signifies that you visit with friends will not accomplish anything that you wanted it to.

but not a skeleton frog... prince, commitment uncleanness... prince, hahaha, i don think it mean prince for me... commitment, mayb some of the thing i don really giving in much.. and for uncleanness, i seriously donno wat that mean...sound quite bad...

so if dream of anything, try and find it out wat it mean... i think no harm

2008-04-10T04:00:00.006+08:00

went to read almost everyone blog...

i sleep at 8 o'clock this morning.... wake up 1pm to meet my mother for lunch... she came and fetch me and decide to have yong tou fu at lor 1... very long never eat there... as usually we go to the flower shop after lunch... to look at the plant and flower then and chit chat with the aunty.... talk talk talk... talk until help aunty to deliver the flower basket to the mount Elizabeth hospital.... first time be a delivery girl... it was a great experience.... and earn 10 dollar for the delivery....after that my mother send me home... cause meetin yee rine kit and liang.... i got myself prepare by 6.10pm and reach there 6.25... haha... i actually take the same train as kit... end up everyone is late except kit and me... hahaha... then head to have kobayashi while waiting for liang... after dinner head to coffee bean.... then fang join us... and everyone head home early...

now that everyone is busy with their life... i think there will be less time to see each other...

i still haven decide which school to go to... haiz.... need to decide as soon as possible... and get myself a job....

now that my ITE life is over... below is the list of wat i miss

NITEC

wonderful teacher Mrs Ho, Miss Dewi
the class TD
miss the days we have funny
thank you for the my birthday celebration.. smach me wif cake... the card... the sweet... the spray... actually it become one of my fav birthday celebration...

hand print (can u still remember print ur hand print... i remember)

miss the day at lab suf the net and play game... haha... go to pool during lunch and after school... play poker in school... and the outing

blur blur de fang at kfc

our way to bras basar

i think this is the ugly pic... but i like picture a lot... lol

HIGHER NITEC

i have waste 2 year of my time... seriously i am very frustrated... the onli a achievement i have is badminton... YES, onli badminton... i have make a lot of wonderful friends there.. i oso meet someone special too... hohoho.. now i miss the training and miss coach...

2008-04-08T23:58:00.015+08:00

wake up around 12 plus... dad called... say that he can discharge... went to hospital to see him... he aready got himself prepare to leave...(can see how desperate he is to leave the hospital)... bet he cant get any sleep... cause to many odd patient le... hahaha... siting next the bed with him... waiting goe the medication and document ready... a

t the same time chat with him.... very long never chat with my dad like this... always work until 10 plus and reach home around 11 plus... when got the time to catch up... since i officially jobless... i actually can spend more time with my family and friend... after that head to nova square to have some food... then go to NTUC shopping.. haha.. now my dad is home again... my heart is ease...

i need to thank ppl who pei me sms... if not i sure die one... lol... Claudia Li 才没有这么容易死了。。。thank you any way... thank you...

2008-04-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

all by myself at home.... dad have to be hospitalize... haiz.... meet yee sara and xueqi at tanjong pagar... i was late because i need to wait for my dad to come home first... see how his condition like.... didnt get a chance to see how nanyang skool like... after that head to tmis... i perfer tmis... mayb because it will establish and got to see how the school like... all of them seen to like nanyang more... NOW I AM A BIT SHAKEN... now donno where to go le...after tmis had subway... i onli ate a cookie... then head to expo to see fang... that is when i got my dad call saying that he has to be hospitalize.... before that went to bugis collect my pay... then straight to TTS... bad memories comes uo immediately... sms ppl to chat with... cause didnt wan to think to much... and that is when i reliease... i have such a good daddy...i am very unfilal... useless... see my dad suffer from the needle... make me even gulity and angony... i jus hate goin to the hospital....every spot of the hospital make me remember everything... if onli i can let go... if onli i can fulfill the wishes... i think i would be so gulity right now...

i jus cant stand being alone at home in such night...

2008-04-05T03:36:00.000+08:00

i donno since when i become so miserable.... or i really noe to much.... or i really think too much.... i donno wat is wrong with me or i am not willing to know.... i was a happy girl, really strong and alway try to give the best... since where i become like this.... or all the while i like this, jus that i never reliease?... and i donno which is which..... finally reliase that i such a lousy person. i don think i belong to here.... if i have the chance to switch place... i think it will be happier this way.... no matter wat i do, i don think i can do well as u.... i am trying my best.... but i am still suck.... maybe all problem lie in me.... i hide to much... i don speak much.... i pretend to much... the more i pretend the i feel cry out loud.... why thing keep prompting in to my head.....

wat am i hide.... wat am i not speakin... wat am i pretending.... wat i am crying..... why am i so scare why do i have to much question? question that i donno how to answer.... can some one jus scold me... so i can wake up.... i feel so numb now.... i become so aimless

2008-02-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..

2008-01-22T04:12:00.000+08:00

at last. i am blogggin... i am jus to busy and lazy to blog... for dec i am busy workin, match and outin.... is so early in the morning.... wake up due to serious headache... try really to containue my dream but i way to pain liao..... wake up and tool panadols... but end vomiting everything up... i was not feeling well becuase of i have to much acid in my stomach... since i cant get back to sleep so i start bloggin.. but photo first

26 dec after arena (tryin to be monkey)

recently forget when.. lol

26 dec after arena

celebrate aunty brithday

something wrong with blogger... keep error...take me hour to upload pic
lazy to upload liao.... next time then upload....

still owe quite a few ppl things
yee - any how love (inspire by why why love)
fang - bday present
mable - bday present

my bday is coming.... donno how to celebrate.... sometime really hate the month of feb... no teen any more... goin into years od twenty.... time really fly... need to go to school soon... cya

2007-12-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

4 dec

normal day.... hahah but got 4 hour break... sooo looonnngg... so i go to IMM and eat and shop around with debra, mable, ting and fen... go to kopitiam and eat korean food... kanna cheated.... see the picture so nice, end up so-so... or even worse then so-so.... then we all window shopping for cosmetic.... hahaha.... then we stilll left with 1 or 2 hours... and donno wat to do... so go to sweanson for earthquake.... hahaha onli mable, ting and me eat onli... debra eat french fries and fen eat bbq wings... then go to school.... is nice to hang out with them...

5 dec

hahah in school, nothing to do.... yes! is AOFA lesson.... so boring.... but friday CA.... 8 am test... i don think i can wake in ah.... so early.... dec is a busy week le... hahaha... i wish noe is holiday.... arhHHH!!! later still need to work... sian ah... then at night go celebrate aunty birthday...

2007-11-23T01:57:00.000+08:00

jus finish chatin with bao yu and yasel jus now..... now that i feel better now... and i need to say thanks to u all.... mayb i think to much or wat... or wat i see is not true.... and i hope is not wat we all think... haiz....

how i wish i can put a full stop b4 i get myself hurt....

most probably not goin to badminton tomoro.... Sorry coach i think i have to pass u the mouse next time..... don have the mood and i don wan to see some1 and then start to cry.... i almost burst to tears last week because i saw him.... i don think i can control myself nowadays.... so i need my some time go back to normal.... okok... i noe along i am normal..... wahaha....

is will end someday...

everything above i think exaggerate too much.... u don see claudia in tears in public..... is really hard to see her in teara wahaha.... is like 1/1000 u will see cry....or = nil

2007-11-10T01:59:00.000+08:00

haha is been almost a month since i blog... actually i have tons of photo to upload.... jus that i am too lazy upload it.... i think i will upload some another day...

the things we do or places we been, some how remind us of our past. either is happy or sad, it jus remind us wat we do that day.... if it was happy memories, u will jus smile or laugh over it... if it was sad memories, u will feel the heartache or u jus sigh... they will accompany u till the end of u life... we cant jus erase the memories like we push the "delete"button on the keyboard....

this few months i been facing a few problem.... i cant find someone to share with... i donno who to go to.... when i needed ppl the most... i cant find anyone.... and end up i have go through it on my own.... i think i am use to it now.... is been so many years and this how i live....

or mayb i jus jus feel insecure......

2007-10-13T03:05:00.000+08:00

finally i am blogging.... holidays ending soon.... and how i spend my Holiday.... hong kong, training and work... boring rite... is so late, is like 3 plus now and i am still not asleep... and tomolo i am working @ BPP... and result sux... never mind, i have a ready giving up this course a long time ago... YES and few more month and i done with my course.... and i have not decide where to go.... Life is about choosing right path.. u need to make the right decision... no matter in Carree, love or study...

WHAT IS THIS LIFE

Life,
but a sorrow ,
given to our hearts
and souls,
A sunken ship,
A horizon of colors,
A fallen sky,
Different in every
aspect,
Color,
Black and white,
Our eyes,
Seeing what we want
them to see,
Nothing surreal,
Blurry to our lense,
Destruction,
Downfall,
All the judgement,
The lies,
What is this life?

DONT JUDGE ME

Mind your own business,
I say when people stare,
I ignore the nasty comments,
I've learnt not to care.
I'm no longer afraid of them,
They no longer make me mad,
I don't let it get to me
I don't let it make me sad.
It's not like it just happened,
Or crept up on me one day,
It's something I was born with,
So I've always been this way.
I've had plenty of time to get used to it,
I'm comfortable with who I am,
I know what's inside more important,
I just wish they'd all understand.
Like me, there's a rule you can follow,
And the same applies to books,
You should never judge a book by its cover,
So don't let them judge you by your looks.
Ignore it when they make comments,
Don't run away and hide,
Look into the mirror and say,
"I'm beautiful inside"!

More and more of all
I need
Love and warmth--
you're everything!
Beyond compare,
beyond belief.
I'm mystified
and so relieved
That together we are
so strong and right
I thank my God
You're in my life.
I'm smiling, laughing
All is right!
With you I am
All I can be
You are just so
good for me!at would u tell them?

STRANGER'S SMILE

I saw him smiling,
Towards me, to me
Just for me.
My heart jumped
My brain spin
Which tingles my skin.
I smiled back,
Awkward glanced
Downright glam.
He walked towards me,
My heart beats liked a drum
Oh my God! Help me to stand.
I faced him
With my sweetest smile,
A smile that can catch a thousand eye.
He reached out to me,
Pulled me closed
Which trembled my knee.
I held my own breath
His touch, his lips
Made me swoon a bit.
I was totally ablaze
His body so closed
My memory froze.

2007-09-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

jus reach home... end of POM papper.... study until this morning 5 plus.... but when i wake up i forget EVERTHING.... sob.... i was late meeting Mable and Debra at clementi Mac..... haiz... i got this feeling that my POM goin to fail ah.... SOB..... but now i feel relieve cause i finish my POM paper... next OA on wed....

below will be photo i took during study.... got nothing to do so take photo... haha... need to rest my brain a while...(zhi lian lol :D.... )

i Really got study one... lol

ice loli for me.... haha... i think that was the day b4 lol...

YES!!! POM SUX!!!! (too bore while studying POM) my piggy bank lol

goin to replenish my sleep... very sleepy ah....

2007-09-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

today, is a mess... i was so moody when i wake up because of wat he say to me last night..... the words he say is still in my mind... when i reached the hall.. i was so moody that i don have the mood to play... after a few matches, i feel better.... then the highlight of the day.... wahlao... seriously, it look very drama lor... but alot of anger, crying, consoling, and scolding....

below will be wat i wanna to say to some ppls

when r u goin to wake up. when r u goin to face the fact. when r u goin to face the reality. when! WHEN! when r u goin to let go.... when r u goin stop being a fool... where r u? where is the person i used to know... is 1 year plus since i seen her.... don tell me that we don understand u.... we know wat u wan... but wat u wan will onli make u suffer... have u even think of y we do this to u.... cause we have a ready had enough of seeing u suffer and giving in... we do all this because we cherish u more then he do.... we don wan to see such a good friend suffering with all this... don say that things wasnt like that yesterday, both of u were happy and sweet.... don give me all those shit..... i tell u now, Mr blar blar blar was running in the park YESTERDAY but he die today... is was sunny YESTERDAY but it raining today... u will never noe wat goin to happen next.. don tell me that u have the moment with he is really sweet and really happy.... y don u tell the moment u had with he is oso really painful and suffering.... if u r really happy, i don think we have to interfere ur relationship.... have u ever stand in our shoes to see how is like to see u suffer... how many time do we have to see u cry and suffer... u always the one giving in and admitting u r in the wrong.... hey, don say wat... i do stand at HIS shoe think... he has his own reason and u have own .... u every time accept every of his reason... do he really accept ur reason or will him fight that he is right.... u think he is the one for u.... do he think u r the one for him? wat is urs is urs.... no matter how u throw that away, it will return to u someday... wat u a ready lost is lost... it will never return.... jus like a person die yesterday and he will not revive.... jus like u burn a piece of paper, it will turn to ash. no matter wat method u use, the ash will never become paper again.... he is take advantage of u.... taking thing for granted.... u will never satisfies him..... u once told alan b4 that "outsider will see clearer then u do." and the fact is that u noe it will not last long.... in fact, it will happen soon or later.... cause u told me that u don wan to end up like ur parents.... please i wish to see the person i saw 1 year ago....

to bee

Sorry for not stopping... really sorry.... next time i will act fast... (i hope there is no next time) haha

to rine

sorry... to left like that... and leaving all the thing to u.... sorry

to rome

haha... sorry for hanging up ur call and ask u to have dinner with us., end up i wasnt there...

i think that about it.....

but end of the day i still have someone to cheer me up :D

2007-09-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

jus finish video call with claudya.... hahaha.... girls' talk wahaha..... i keep doin the talk because i tell her every single thing... hahaha.... not goin to go to school tomoro.... Tuesday then go... cause got presentation.... need to send my cellphone to service, keep shutting down by it own.... sob.... is nice to work at bukit panjang once in awhile... cause can relax... now very budget... need to save up money for show's concert, HKG trip, JPN trip..... i need to sacrifice one of them.... haiz.... need to study hard... cant remember wat to blog about.... haha... below is the badminton photo....

Got this from sam, Girl with bear bear(that wat they call Han xiong)

badminton Family Photo. (not everyone is there)

the Boy Team

The Girl Team

that ME.....(i look super ugly with jersey)

the girl team champion.

Girl Team

find it nice and took a picture of it after Friday training(but come out to be so so... the cloud should be pink when i saw it)

that was wat Rini and i had for dinner... Donut.... enjoying myself at bukit panjang...

Missy Donut... i have 5 Donut today... three from here and another 2 in the late afternoon...

2007-09-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

is been a week since i post... seriously, last two week is very tough for me.... no time to rest... hahaha.... this week trainings were very fun... a lot of jokes..... like the hopping.... and the warm up we do yesterday... haha... today never go to school... cause teachers' day celebration... is like waste of time.... wake up at 12 today... then go training.... the thing that i planned to do, didnt do.... i was like keep forgetting to do it or to late do.... haha.... haha....
after traning meet kit, dao liang at cine.... all of us was on budget.... rine and me share a set of meal(cine korean bbq beef and fish hot plate)... both of us was full although sharing one set meal.... then head to cuppage to play pool.. after go to motu (the coffee shop opps cuppage) and have some thing to eat.... post another day... feeeling sleepy le....

2007-08-22T00:40:00.000+08:00

lose today and yesterday match... really not happy with myself.... everyone is say that we never communicate.... and play our own game... i really not happy with myself liao.... i donno where i can vain all my frustration... i don wish to vain my anger to anyone... bruise on my leg and arm i didnt got them during my match... i hit myself with my racket because i didnt do well.... i bite myself because i donno where can i vain my frustration to.... y do it have to be like that... y when i needed someone the most... no one is with me..... y do i have to go through all by myself... this is not the first time... and this is not the worse one.... i cant find someone to talk.... when i need them the most... they are not free..... so feel like crying.... but my tear don wish to roll out.... is struck inside... i wan to cry out loud... so feel like cry out loud.... all i need is a pair of ear and shoulder at right time... haiz.... mayb i jus under stress... after the badminton.... went to have dinner at the coffee shop.... and took coach car home.... really like taking coach car... cause all ur problem will gone.... if anyone got the chance to sit on his car then u noe wat i meant.... haiz... still got presentation and project to hand up... this Friday dead line.... i don think i can sit for my exam.... attend not enough ah... i think i will get debar.... donno since when do they change the system to 95 percent instead to 85 percent.... haiz... really very sian ah.... i wanna die le....

2007-08-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

19 Aug Sunday

meet yasel at bishan... cause she got free ticket to watch Bourne Ultimatum at vivo... ques to collect the ticket.. and we bought Popcorn, two drink, cheese hot dog and nacho.. didn't watch that movie... yasel tend to sleep through the whole movie, cause she didn't get the chance to sleep.. i wanted to watch but end up sleeping too....we will to near to the screen.... and it made me feel very giddy so went to sleep.... after that had Carl junior for dinner... took a cab to yasel work place... she need to work today... so accompany to her work place and later on i left to go to some where else.... i went to the east part of Singapore... haha... very east... went to look for someone.... that someone don believe i at his/her house down stair... haha... i am pretty happy today......

18 Aug Saturday

nothing much.... today heard fireworks during work... haha.. how i wish i can go watch it.... after work go to golden mile with yasel and her mum... go disco..... first time wore slipper and Bermudas to club.. -.- it was fun haha.... when home around 4 plus...

17 Aug Friday

finish my project very very last minute... haiz... very got for OA this morning.. onli go for POM... go for POM for 5 minutes. Mr chin release us.... then head to Dover.... yee and rine match is a pity... all thank to the F___ing umpire.... after badminton dao liang at lot 1... dao liang got infection, his toe is rotting.... hahah and have KFC

u can see wat she is trying to say....

talk to rine on the phone

too bore... so take photo

2007-08-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

too busy leh.... no time to update.. haiz too many things happen... haiz... this whole week badminton matches... my matche is on Thur and Fri... wish me luck.... the whole week i have AL to cover me... hehe... very stress ah... Mon to Fri got Dover, still need to go to school in morning.... sat and sun still need to work.... still projects to rush... haiz... one on the 17 Aug (POM) and 24 Aug (Web)
this Monday(13 Aug) is very sad for me... today i oso realize that...... all the words he say that day keeps repeating my mind... and is still repeating in my mind now.... i jus simply cant forget the words... after badminton went to pasir ris.... and things never stop there... Tues and today i keep listening to one song namie amuro "should i love him?" Tuesday i reach Dover early... i was too early... no one was a round... onli coach and him... didnt wanted to face him... so went to the stage behind and isolate... keep listening the i song mentions jus now... think a lots....
For today i still listening the song while i m blogging.... the whole day i been listening to this song....
this time i not goin to run away... i will face it al the way... that wat i think at the moment... i still cant commit... i got a lot of question to ask him.... i donno where to start and i donno how to ask him... i don have the coverage.... all sudden, everything become sour.... haiz... i really don wish to see him tomoro.... cause i jus cant concentrate...

that is wat huilan draws on my winter melon drink during chin's class

that wat i have on monday, after all the sad thing... haiz

picx on 8 Aug

the Au's sisters singing their song

Guess whose foot is that (fang and mine)

fang and me

2007-08-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

nothing much today... late for web for 1 hour... cause i sleep at around 6 am.... lunch go IMM and eat....after school go orchard with Debra and Mabel.... spend again... don have enough money to survive this month... confirm! wed goin to MOS... is will b a long day for me... school then k session then training then MOS... thinking wanna meet someone for breakfast a not... wahaha... how i wish can go watch hanabi with someone on 9 aug.... fat hope

2007-08-06T03:00:00.000+08:00

early in the morning, i feel crazy... hahaha... cause for the continues days i dream of the same person.... and that make me feel a bit crazy.... before i sleep last night..... i paste this in front of my door

cause i know that my dad will surely wake me up and ask me the reason y i no need to work today while i am sleeping...
haha.. goin out with mummy today... head for Japanese food today at Shaw tower.... the food is nice....

then go to toa payoh to get my contact lens done.... need to go to collect another boxes on wed... spend almost 200 dollar today... almost i spend all my pay.... sob... donno how to survive this month... sob
tomoro still need to go to school still haven sleep... hehe

2007-08-04T02:38:00.000+08:00

3 Aug friday

no need to go to school today... no class... so happy... no david chin and no cythia classs. wahaha... sleeep all the way untill my dad start to nag(nag me y i still don wan to wake up) .... feel so realex today...stay at home and do housework... then meet jia yee and fang around 7 plus almost 8.... walk around at bugis... and had mcdonald... then went to take pay and walk around again... then go for seafood... happy birthday to ah han... hope u enjoy urself...

4 Aug Sat

working today... haha.. saw siew yin this morning... haha... and she come and see me during her lunch break.... i was shock to see, i tot her off work le...then later gen came.... haha... so long never see her le... keep saying her hair like wig... cause like too long le.... happy to her... haha... then i the evening mabel come and see me... wahaha... today so many ppl come and see me le... wahaha... so good... but i oso realize that we cant let our gurad down.... cause there are ppl that we cannot trust.... then went o mcdonald again and chat... waited for very long then the bus come... and driver drive very slow ah... go and see star before go home.....

2007-08-01T10:51:00.000+08:00

in school now... finish my dreamweaver work... got nothing to do.. update blog... got a lot of photo to upload... hehe..

28 july

wake up around 9 plus... haha.. meeting my mummy for lunch then she will fetch me to the max pavillion for S.H.E fun party.... had vegeterian food for lunch... then took a rest in the car... cause still early donno where to go, then head to tampines IKEA... went walkin around... and then go to the cafe then to have my meatball and coffee.

mom had a apple and a tea... after that mummy send me to EXPO... reach around 6 and waited for 3 before the concert start.

the concert so so la.... not very high le.... although having VIP seat... debra and me
debra's and mine legs. hahaha... we are wearing black and red
(wondering whose finger is that... they belong to yu fang )after concert go to clark quay... haiz... forget to bring my IC a long... so go home and take IC... the STUPID TAXI DRIVER donnot how to drive wan ah... keep breaking.... before going to MOS... drank 5 cup of vodka with 7-up... abit drank... then go into MOS, so pack... dance with our bag abit werid lor... took a lot pic.... i not
good at taking photo hehe...

(took in the toilet)

2007-07-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

late for POM lesson... luckily today rain ah... haha... if not that david chin goin to nag and nag... then go for OFA lesson... no lesson got the stupid talk... through the whole talk i go and sleep... then no WEB lesson... then reach dover very early 3 plus reach le... haha... no ppl and the hall is so cold.... surprise to see him wear so nice... but y is he not in shoe... haiz...

should or should not. i don think i have the courage... and feeling for him is so uncertain... if onli i have the couurage....

2007-07-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

today so sleepy so tired... never go for badminton.... reach home, go and sleep allllllllllllll the way till dinner time.... so pissed off by my dad.... pissed untill i cry.... luckily he left the house, if not i think i will go crazy ah.... jus clam down then he come back.. wah so angry.... see his face, my anger come back again... wahlao... can u jus stop ur nagging... keep on nag nag nag.... u not tire, i tire... is not like i not goin to do it.... hello, i big enough to make my own decision... y do u have to give me that kind a look saying that my decision is not a wise one.... stuck between the two of u is so tiring..... alway have to keep everything to myself..... i cant seek help from anyone.... feel so helpless.... cant both of u understand me a little more before u all start complaining....

2007-07-20T00:33:00.000+08:00

jus reach home not long ago... finish school around 2 plus... go self-acess room and play games... so sian.... 4 plus then head to dover for training... today training onli corrine and me... haiz.... this few day very moody... having problem controling my emotion... cry during training... no one noe ba... i oso donno y i cry... period period period when r u coming.... haiz... all the answers to my questions is answered.... all the things i curious about, i have find it out today... this should be the end...

2007-07-18T02:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday never go to school.... haha.... this month try my best not to skip any classes... late for POM... took a taxi to school 12 dollors.... haiz.... i cant hear the alarm rang this morning.... slept till 8.45.... and reach school at 9.15 am.... fast huh... from to toa payoh to clementi... lunch break went KFC with jia yee and her classsmates.... we all like crazy ppl like that.... haha... after WEB... wait for the guys untill very late 5.15 like that then decide to leave without them.... reach dover never have mixed vegetable rice... they say not having dinner.... but luckily not hungry... today not as tough as the other day... today quite releaxe... after traning... go home with empty stomach... actually wan to eat de... but yee they all wan to go tiong to eat.... so bo pian.... go home.... bought kuay jea....

wrote a comment to someone.. cause i think i really don have any other place to voice out...

the feeling for him is so uncertain... or i jus trying to deny it.... but i try to be honest to myelf.. i keep to telling myself to face reality by doing that i will reduce the pain.... at the very point, i am not hurt yet.... and i think i don wish too.....
till the day i go dover not getting nervous, that will be the day i a ready let go......

2007-07-15T01:29:00.000+08:00

reach home not long ago... about 12.45 am... have dinner after work.... harry potter movie session cancel.... instead of watching movie, we go and have seafood... wahaha... aunty treat all of us... the dinner cost $159.... 2 chillies crab, 2 black pepper crab, kang kong, salad you tai, hotplate sotong and butter cereal prawn.... tomoro work full... haiz...

2007-07-14T02:05:00.001+08:00

haha... haven sleep... cant sleep.... tomoro need to work 11... mayb after work aunty treating us to watch harry potter.... change my mind.. i think i not goin ba... down with flu and injury... my back, my ankle and feet still hurt.... haiz... is been a long day..... OA ca today.. late for the test.... is a easy papper... but don have any confindent to pass... cause never study.... after test go to clementi central for kfc.... haha no david chin lesson never come today so head for kfc... then go back to school.. still very early... have badminton training..... wahaha... today attendent VERY GOOD AH. hahaha.... use both hand can count ah... liang and kit never come and steamboat cancel.... then yasel ask me go watch Transformer with her and jacky.... but luckily jacky have wake up... then end cannot meet her oso.... but today training 6 then end... wahaha... no bad le... so little ppl still can training untill 6... after training, go and bath.... the worst thing ever happen to me.... while bathing , there is a frog in the cubical i am in... OMG.... i was bare, bathe half-way.... so helpless, keep scream for help.... if is a bug or cockroach, i wouldnt be that helpess... A FROG NO WAY.... in my entire life the thing i HATE THE MOST IS FROG!!!!! i keep screaming for help.... yee ask me kick it away... how to kick away, it is at the corner le... sure die... die never mind ah, WAT IF IT JUMP.... i cannot go any where le.... cause i am bare... i never feel so helpless before.... sob... hurry finish bathing and run ah.... then went home.... wahlao sudden feel so blue on my way home..... and it turn to bad mood ah.... so bad mood that i buy so much food....

2 popiah, 1 chendo, 1 fried carrot cake, 1 mee poh.....havin my dinner almost.... luckily never ah.... cause i wanna cry that time.... my dad walk out from his room..... wahlao i tot no one at home..... need to sleep... byebye

2007-07-11T09:36:00.000+08:00

in school updateing my blog....

7 july, Saturday

today is 070707... oso my brother's birthday.... went to visit my brother alone... didnt tell my dad that i goin.... heart ache

8 july, Sunday

Sunday, never work today... meet mother and mak uncle and his family for lunch... after lunch went for shopping at centre... bought a red shoe... hehe.. quite like it... saw esther and jermery.... tot buying that top.... but very ex..... 65.90 for that top but it from japan... then have japan food for dinner.... i like that resturant.... it have very nice view.... will upload the picture later today...

9 july, Monday

school reopen.... almost cant wake up for school... my alarm rang 7.15.... my mind was think"still early, wake up at 8.30 oso can" i almost forgotten that today school reopen.... tot goin to work today...haha... luckily wake up and go to school on time.... hahaha

2007-07-07T01:10:00.000+08:00

5 july

bad luck.... real bad luck... things not goin smoothly.... thing didnt happen the way i wanted.... sad.... but never mind..... i am one step closer.... sprain my ankle during bad... went to chalet..... i noe a lot of thing and catch up with my girls.....

6 july

today work suck... really suck.... my sale suck.... everthing sux.... one day this friendship may end due to this person.... but i hope this day will never come.... jus realise that my ankle and my feet is swelling.... old injures.... if never take care properly..... few week cannot go badminton..... :(

tomoro bro's birthday..... feel really very bad... feel very sorry.... feel very sad.... cause how can i forget him birthday..... really sorry really sorry... very long never go down le.... feel really damn bad and sad... cry on my way home..... if tomoro late for work i oso don care..... i tomoro die die oso go down..... the more i thinkof him the more i miss him... love you....

got this from claudya blog.....

选择要单身的女生
觉得没有领外一半是自由的
选择要单身的女生
觉得自己很独立
很轻松

我有听说过
单身的女生一开始会觉得很自由
很独立
很轻松

但过了一些期間
自由独立轻松的感觉
慢慢变酸了

那曾经很自由的女生
最后感觉到的不是独立
而是寂寞

我在洗手间时
问她，"为什么?"
她却回不答什么因为
她应该是爱想太多吧
哈，觉得她好傻
但还是要问，她。。
到底怎么了?
我。。
怎么回事?

do u feel that way??
honestly,

i do
but don any how get a boyfriend, jus because u feel this way......

2007-06-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

really very tire ah.... wake up 9.30... left the house at 10.... go school to pay school fee... i noe i noe, y didnt i go to AXS to pay? cause my dad wrote a cheque.... so need to go to school and pay.... then go dover to pass him the money and then rush to work.... WAHLAO!! really cant stand that NUI MO WANG ah..... keep selling and snatch customers... then after work go starbuck and have a drink.... then slowly walk to bus stop and jus to take the last bus..... look up to sky to see the moon and star.... tonite sky very clear... can see star and moon hehehe

ok.... sorry i have take back some of the words in the few previous post..... "but i donno how.... anyway no one would wanna noe wat happen to me... no one will wan care....."

the fact is that i really don wan anyone to.... ANYONE... cause i cant believe it happen in my life.... and it become my nightmare....

(clearing the throat) i think i mistaken by wat i say in the previous post.... I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM..... is not wat u think is it.... jus that i am very curious about him.... and i admire him.... i jus think we have a lot of thing in commens.... and i jus realise recently... tomoro workin 12 need to go and sleep le....

2007-06-26T02:35:00.000+08:00

hiaz... he make my heart ache...... he make me feel like crying... and make me feel that i am not alone.... and make feel like i am a better person... but he makes me very confuse.... he makes me think a lot.....he makes me wan to know more about him..... so feel like clubbing... so feel like drinking... so feel like crying.....

2007-06-23T03:36:00.000+08:00

cant sleep... still need to work tomoro.... still cant sleep....

no matter how strong a person is, there is time they cant take it anymore... jus like a rubber band, if u pull it to it limit, it will snatch... no matter how u tolerent, one day u jus cant stand it anymore... y must i have to be so painful?... i wan stop it.... but i donno how.... anyway no one would wanna noe wat happen to me... no one will wan care..... i m jus an extra...

no matter how i try.... i still end crying in the slience..... keep all the thing to myself.... no more strength to hang on... to trie... "being happy or sad, is really up to u" i agree.... but how.... leave the past behind and be happy.... i try that... no use... thing will remind me of the past.... how can i stop my tear.....

will be the dead be remember?

2007-06-14T13:28:00.000+08:00

now i in POM class... David chin not here yet... ask us to do our project but all my memeber not here.... got nothing to do... so come and blog.... wish i can go home now, waste of my time.... later still need to go and work le... haiz.... hope i wish i can travel.... mayb cannot go to hong kong... sobbing.... need to drive my dad crazy to let me go.... i really feel like goin to redang.... i really feel like join them... can go there relex and destress... but very extra lor.... Redang a ready sunny enough... ask another light bulb go very extra lo... they suggest to ask the LXL go... crazy ah... please lo, as if he will go like that... Ya, onli in my dream LXL will go lo... hehehe.... watever... i noe is impossible, i will jus keep dreaming.... :)

2007-06-14T00:35:00.000+08:00

how i wish to end my ITE life soon... i dislike this kind of school life.... the more i think of it the more i hate it.... or should i say i hate everything, every single thing...

holiday is coming and how i wish i don have to conatct anyone.... i wan to be all by myself.... no handphone no computer nothing....

i jus hate myself... all i been through and wat do i get in return... PAIN AND HATE.... am i a fool to u.... how i wish i can lost contact with the world.....

2007-06-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

trie tire so tire.... so now i am in SR 2 having web... she haven start lesson yet.... i hope can end lesson early.... this day really in a very bad shape, mentally and phsically.... mentally, i can break down any time and any where.... mayb due to mentally problem my body don feel quite well oso.... from last week i start throw out.... i feel disgusted when i saw food or feel like throwing out .... lost appetite and so on.....

later need to go to town and collect my choker then go to work le... sian ah.. i still haven started my project.... donno can finish a not... got to go end here

2007-06-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

now i in sr 2 having my OA... teacher haven start lesson... haven had anything till now... later goin to work... tomolo got POM progress test... haven study yet...prepare to fail the test... next week POM CA le... no time to study siaaaa... haiz.... this few day feel down.. donno y oso..... wan to be all alone... i feel nothing now... i don feel a feeling for him... my mind is very clear now.... now i waiting for friday to come... jus to confirm it.... really very sleepy.... goin to sleep le... update next time...

2007-06-04T10:34:00.001+08:00

2 of june is the sweeter day i even have..... haha... mayb to other is jus nothing but to me so is very sweet le...

wake up in the morning the first person who appear in mind is him... i was shock but that... and i didn't think so much, so go and prepare for work... out of the house, my instinct tell me that today i should take MRT to work, but i didn't follow my instinct... so went to take bus.... on the way to bus stop i start getting and getting to excited.(because he is coming to work place and buy bag) while i waiting for my bus to come, he gave me a call and ask where am i.... and say that he reach there.... and we jus start chatting..... End up meeting him at my work place's bus stop.... so we walk together to my workplace.... this was part of it.... Because wat happen that day, i saw the cute side of him.... when i reach home i start smsing him... i was so high that i have problem go to sleep....

3 of june
after work went for dinner... cause today was to busy, no time to eat.... we have sting ray, sotong, kang kong and chicken wing with yee, fang, wei ling and benny..... the guy have to go back first because they need to catch the last train.... after the guy go, we start to have our girl talk... after that we taxi home...

reach home and thought about everything.... he is treating everyone so nice... same time really make ppl misunderstand it... the past few day i am leaving in the fantay... and i noe thing will never happen the way i wan.... if thing really happen, he way too good for me... and i don wish to go through all suffering...so i decided to leave the fantasy world and go back to reality....

2007-04-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

jus come out of the bath room... jus break down in the bath room.... the running tap wash away my tears and left me with a feeling that i cant find a word to describe it.... there is too many missing pieces in my life.... i am totally a failure in everything... and i feel so useless, hopeless... donno noe wat to do... i feel so sorry for my parents.... i really miss brother.... i really wish he will be there for me... but i noe, i will never even see him again.... i wan to keep my promise till the never end... but i need the strengh... i so worry i will forget eveything about him... i miss you... is a ready 6 years.... and i jus cant let go.... looking back to the past.... my tears will simply roll down my cheeks.... sometime i wan to leave this place.... and start all over again at somewhere ...... don dare to mention it bcoz scare my dad and mon will worry for me and i don wan to bring back their pain too... seeing ppl with sibling... really hurt me deeply and painfully.... and all i can do is to pretend normal... i really wish i can have someone that can clearly see through me... noe wat i am think... be there for me... stand beside me and guide me all the way... never give up on me.... encourage me..... not even my parents can see through me.... alway keeping thing to myself and not sharing it... i starting to see my mom's shadow and my brother's shadow inside me... can someone kind please bring me out of it... from everything.... before i change to someone else..... when will i find my happiness?

saw junhao, alvin, jian liang, kenneth in bugis.... is really nice to see them...(from the bottom of my heart) even though we start shooting each other when we meet.... really wish there is another gather where everyone is there....
my life is work, study, sleep and eat......

2007-03-06T04:45:00.001+08:00

finally i am updating my blog... is like 3 month since i update my blog.... doing nothing.... though of studying... but nothing is get in to my brain.... siting infront of my computer... donno wat to do oso... i am not goin to school till exam.... and is left less then a week to exam... i have even start studying.... saturday still need to work... haiz... study about less than 15 minutes, i start to walk around in the house, finding food or things to do..... that when my dad will start nagging at me... blar blar blar.... how i wish that i can mute him jus like we do to our TV.... my ear will be very peaceful.... really miss my nitec life...

lately, all the feeling is coming back again... trying to control it.... i don wan to go back to my darkness moment..... but i still lost in the middle of the forest, tryin to finding my way home.... i don wan get hyperventilation again.... i am trying not to think about it... trying to concentrate on my exam... jus hope things go smoothly.... really looking forward to HKG trip... something is better to keep it to ownself than to say it out... being happy or being sad, really up to u....

2006-12-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

091206

meet yasel and bao yu at braddel MRT at 10.30 but bao yu came late. head to the hotel for our lunch....
We will the first few to come and the last to go. after lunch, as usaual we went to ladies to have own photo session... haha... around 3 plus we head to yasel karaoke pud... sing sang sung till 9... and go to meet yee and kit... then home sweet home...

2006-11-28T12:30:00.001+08:00

now in school... now having EVM.... i now so free.... and oso very long never update le.... jia yee i wait till u come back. i want revenge... never pain le... my class now very noise le....

don wat to update le la

2006-11-05T03:39:00.001+08:00

jus finish reading ppls blog and i got a lot to say... i am f**king bad mood now... have delete a lot of sentence after typing... coz really donno if i should post it.... no mood to continuance this post...

2006-11-05T03:39:00.000+08:00

2006-10-29T18:23:00.000+08:00

not AGAIN!!! my computer spoil... this time is not virus... but donno wat is that, say i install a new software or hardware and somthing is missing... but i never install anything.... i need to get my com fix by this week.... i got things to do... man!. all the new photo i took is in there that i haven finish uploading it..... WTF!!.... and my song and PV (sob).... i am so worry that it need to reformat.... cry... currently i am using my dad's laptop....

i am so worry to go to school tomolo because of this two thing, first is mrs yeo that wan to see my dad... i haven tell him anything about it.... second is my stupid hair cut..... is make me look stupid... i donno wat will happen to me tomolo...

2006-10-27T18:20:00.000+08:00

do nothing.... jus stay at home..... actually wan to go badminton.... but no court... then jus stay at home and slack....

2006-10-26T11:52:00.000+08:00

sleep at 3 plus again last night.... again i got so sleepy while having lesson.... really so tried... really not enough sleep ah.... got so restless.... brain no workin.... haiz.... in the end i cant get away.... mrs yeo still wan to see my parent... haiz.... ok FINE!!! jus have to face it... went to cut my hair.... OMG... my hair cut suck.. i look so stupid..... i donwan to go to school wif this hair cut... i think have to spend my weekend think how to style my hair or anything about it.... tomolo no need to go to school... thinking where to go tomolo.... need to get my mom persent.... her birthday coming....

2006-10-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

25102006

sleep at 3 plus last nite.... so tried... go to school... got so sleepy and of coz i fell asleep...skip PIE lesson... pei debra to buy her lunch... then went to town to meet jia yee.... jia yee was the first to reach... then me... then yf and benny.... yf and benny haven had their lunch so went to cine base to have their lunch.... then go to k box... everyone got so cold inside the KTV room... haha.... of coz cold la... u all don wan to high la... haha.... but later we all got so high, especialy jia yee and me... haha... then jia qi came.... after kbox, took MRT to siew yin's chalet.... on my way in the MRt i got so sleepy again... no seat for me.... almost fell asleep while standing.... haha luckily got a seat afterward.... reach leh.. then found that not everyone was there... but luckily got alvin and jun hao perform their lame magic show... but it was so funny... haha... left the chalet around 11.10 waited for bus.... while waiting for the bus... this frog from nowhere hop toward road... and got roll over but the bus... and i hear a sound.... a sound jus like a ballon burst.... reach the bus interchange, reliaze that i miss bus and train... end up taking a taxis home..... 14 dollar plus.... seen like i spent alot today....

i will upload the photo someday....

2006-10-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

really bad mood today....

wake up 10 plus.... cuase goin to meet someone later... meet for lunch and say bye bye.... is about 1 plus... donno where to go... don feel like goin home, don have the mood to spend the time wif my parents.... head to bugis and look for jy and yf.... sit inside the shop... chit wif them and watching them serving customer.... went home around 5.... at last i took bus home.... wahaha... at last noe where is my the bus stop.... wahaha....

actually thinks a lot today... cause a lot of ppl around me is getting very emontional this days.... thinking about everyppl around me.... thinking wat is their greatest fear.... to most of the ppl is to face death and separation.... some ppl say that time goin heal everything.... how long and how short the time is, is goin to depend on u and how u face it.... when we get sad, confuse, we will jus lock oursleves in the room and cry our heart out without let anyone knows, thinking about the sad things.... wiping and sneezing thing into tissue paper.... y?! we ppl jus don wan to let others see them cry.... (some exception) or u jus don wan ppl to see ur weakness... i now alot of ppl who do that.... jus do think that i donno... sometime we have to stop dwelling into it... i know is not that easy.....

2006-10-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

23102006

ok i got it... but starbucks oso not cheap leh... wahaha...

today school half day.... but i still skip lesson.... skipped BCM... so left school around 11... head to town to watch movie... intend to DOA but it was to late.... 5 pm leh too late lor.... end up watching "silk".... though that "silk" will be terrifying but not ,is more about the bond between the son and the mother.... is a pity that barbie hsu don have much scenes in it... in the movie she look like

deathstrike in x-men 2(kelly hu)

barbie hsu in silk

don they look a like?

2006-10-22T04:18:00.000+08:00

jus finish watch Boku wa imouto ni koi wo suru(anime).... have anyone watch that b4, please share some comment.... the story is about a brother falling in love with his twins sister.... unfortunately the sister fall for her brother too..... how can that happen?! or they don have the word "brother" and "sister" in their dictionary..... is a FORBIDDEN LOVE..... does anyone have that experienece b4? if it is yes, please share with me.... i mean how impossible is THAT!!!! and how does the scriptwritter come up with this story..... or he experienece it b4 or wat..... image that ur sibling fall for u... is the scriptwritter goin to come up with another story telling that a daughter fallin for her dad..... NO WAY!!!! how r u goin to handle this..... i don think i can sleep tonite....

oh ya.... matsumato jun is the leading role in this movie oso... i wan to watch that..... and oso 1 litre of tear in movie.... donno when will is show

2006-10-21T02:05:00.000+08:00

20102006

finish school at 12 plus.... waited for the hall to open... rine say that D.L and kit is coming..... miss them..... haha... badminton without them is no fun... haha.... went to bugis after badminton... meet jasper at bugis... have laska for dinner..... after dinner meet someone familliar.... haha.... thinking if i should say hi to her... think twice better not... went starbuck and slack.... buy takopachi (it remind me of claudya haha), order carmel... talk alot there... wish to talk like this again....

2006-10-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

19102006

finish school at 12 something.... school held mr and miss ITE in the canteen... everyone enjoy the band alot.... after school went to centre and sing k with yf and jy.... haha.... got so high.... so long never been to k box.... all of us got so high when it reach the grasshopper's song.... i wan to go again..... reach home around 7 plus....

2006-10-16T11:56:00.000+08:00

school reopen.... so stressful in the morning because i noe wat goin to happen....

david chin is on attachment.... and our CA change to NTUC teacher.... haiz.....

after school go town.... meet jy and yf there..... they meeting someone to watch rob-a-hood...

2006-09-13T03:53:00.000+08:00

12092006

wake up today at 3 something.... haha late rite... is so nice to sleep... ahaha... then switch on my phone received debra message asking me if i am goin to any where to study.... the message was sent around 12 something.... then call her ask if she wants to study... then call jia yee to join as well... decided to go orchard and study.... end up MAC at taka.... saw sodoya. taking her diploma now.... and starting studying.... after a while, my brain jus kept thinking wat to have for dinner... the funny thing was that.. when debra was saying "hoping tomoro PAPER is easy" then i replied her "wat hoping tomoro patato is easy?" haha... i jus cant stand myself.. my brain jus kept thinking about food.... WTH.... then went to cine kfc to have my dinner then went to mise.... haha..... after mise, go home.... cant wait till my "patato" end... haha...

13092006

yes is so late... and i am still awake.... i was studying for my account paper today at 3PM..... reading throught ppl blogger.. haha.. still having problem with my account... need to go to early and ask ppl leh....... after 5pm i am free.. wahaha..... can relex leh..... cant wait till friday to watch GIGGOLO WANNABE..... still deciding if i am goin to watch THE HOST with jia yee on thursday....wahaha...... exam haven over.... aready start planning where to go.... oh shoot! need to go and sleep leh.. is 4.20am leh.... luckily my paper is at 3...

2006-09-09T00:45:00.000+08:00

nothing much... jus stay at home and study..... my world now is study study and study... hoping these end soon... is very tiring....

2006-09-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

neve go to school..... so meet jiayee, yufang at bugis village... because aunty wan to see me.... hahah... later went to mee t mummy at shaw tower.... and bought thing and have dinner with her..... then go home and STUDY again.... haiz... study!

2006-09-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

wake up around 1 something in the afternoon.. wahaha.. P.I.G.... then had my lunch before heading to my mum's house..... need to water the plant before she comes back...... around 4 something received a call from her, ask me if i had forgotten to water the lotus plant for her.... trying to pretend that i have water the lotus plant for her.... BUT, the most stupider question i ask her was "Mum, Where is ur Lotus Plant ah?". Oh great now..... wat didi i jus ask her? did i jus tell her that i had forgotten to water her lotus plant.... i jus cant believe that i jus ask her that.... luckily even she didnt scold me....

at last received your call, i tot wat happen to u... went M.I.A for two weeks.... that is a very time leh... do u noe u make ppl worried for u..... u should had give us a call.... thank you god, that nothing happen to u!

2006-08-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

today morning pouring so heavily.... is so nice to sleep, jus don feel like go to school.. bo bian ah... today got role play leh... die die must go to school... wahaha..... 8.00 am still at home inputing song into MP3..... is still pouring outside... waiting for the rain to stop... for sure today will be late for school..... reach school around 9.20...saw everyone in the canteen.... tot no classes... to my surprise, uncle chin is in the canteen having breakfast with some of my classmate..... then went to class and have my role play.... thanks debra... if not i will fail my role play..... ahaha... saw jia yee outside my class shouting for mr chin... askin him if today got lesson... cause her class left with chun yin and her.... after BFD, went to find jia yee.... they r goin to have AFD... ya! jus the three of them... sara came earlier part.. so there was three of them... went home to and have lunch.. usually after lunch is very common that u will feel sleepy.... i think u noe wat am i goin to do rite.. wahaa...

2006-08-31T01:26:00.000+08:00

tried tried tried.... exam coming soon.... i think i am goin to fail my accounting leh... i don understand a single thing lor.... haiz... need to study bloody hard for accounting..... i need some one to teach me and study with me....My school life is so boring... every monday start i always looking forward to friday..... cause to me, friday is the day i can have as much fun that i wan.... :) not like last year, we have so much fun.... tomoro we gonna celebrate teacher day.... WTH... school is as usaul... sian ah...... think gonna skip class again.... skip a lot of class thid month...
got to go and sleep... good nite

2006-08-16T00:51:00.000+08:00

10082006

debra not goin to school... rushing for project... left me alone.... the whole day leh... don wat to do.... need to go home and rush my project... tomoro still got dargon boat...haiz

11082006

rush my project untill 4 o clock in the morning.... wake up late... took taxis to school.. wahlao traffic jam ah... and rush to staff room and hand in the project.... so bad lucky and stress... got a lot of thing happen man... took the school bus to kallang river... debra don wan to join in the fun... so again all by myself... and some of my classmate... wahaha... it was fun.. splashing water and row the boat... jus that the sky got jealous of us and starting raining.... all of us is wet.... had a tiny competition with other boat.... my boat didnt got the first but not last.... donno which position we are in... who cares... as long as we have fun... go and bath.... go head to mac and have lunch... wanted to go to orchard with jia yee... but got to rush something... so never pei jia yee.... hontoni gomennasai... settle everything leh.... had my dinner... my dad went o church.... mummy came and give me "GUA SA" in the van... YAA, in the van... but cannot see through de... haha... she give vitimin C pills... i was realy touch... is been a long time that i had this feeling... a undescribles feeling..... tomoro exam ah.. oral, written, and listening ah... but end fall asleep.... everything in my room were not swtict off untilll i wake up....

12082006

head for japanese class.... perpare to fail... nothing got into my brain.... after exam watch cartoon in school... then head to cine to have our lunch and went to mrt to wait for kit sam and glenn.... wahaha... first time saw kit after he go service... wahaha... sashiburi kit... then went to cine and bought their ticket and to hereen.... saw my lao gong(Teppei)..... then head back to cine for yoshinoya... say good bye to them and went to meet my daddy

13082006

wake up at 1 something.... and baoyu ask me if i wan to go to wild wild wet... she got free ticket..... y not!!! too stress..... that is a good way to relieve stress.... went to wold wild wet and then go head to her mother chalet and have bbq... have a great chat with her and tell her wat had happen to me this few day......

14082006

indeed i am fall sick.... vomited... went home after lunch and took a good rest.... so how i feel tomoro.... if i feel better then go to school.....

15082006

never go to school todae... cannot get down of my bed... my back hurts...i am down with a flu and cough.... my dad cook breakfast for me and ask me take the medication.... and went back to sleep... wake up and have my lunch, porridge again... had that for two day.... and went back to sleep again.... wake up and watch yu lei bai fen bai... and had dinner.. yes and is porridge again...
cant sleep now cause i slept too much...

Is been a very stressful days, for me..... now my stress level got down.... i really thanks jia yee, bao yu and all my girls...... YES! and to my parents thank for take care of me..... i really feel very happy althought with those stresss....

last of all, GANBARIMASU to myself....

end here.... napfa tomoro...Stress stress stress tomoro.... good lucky to those who rushing for their project.....

aiya forget to say happy birthday to debra..... gomen!

2006-07-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

jus come back from NDP... the fireworks were beautiful... i wan to watch it again... hahaha... this year is the last time they hold NDP at Kallang Stadium.... it was so romance.... so sad to say that the one beside me is not the one in my mind.... hahaha.... but never mind it end up great... hehe... need to do my project leh.... hehe

2006-07-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

multi-tasking now... haha... chatting on msn, chatting on phone, update my blog and listening to song... saw monkey in school... really monkey climbing on the tree and pick the fruit on the tree... so cute... haha...
watching yu le bai fen bai... twin leh... ha ha....
decided not goin for S&W tomolo... i rather stay at home and sleep late... haha... need to reach school by 1PM...This few day feel very troubled.. haiz... i wan to go back to.... i need to thank u girl that give me the support... u girl r oways there for... i really donno how to thanks you.... i cant image life with u girl... thank you corrine for the photo.... especially to jia yee, bao yu...

i really donno how to thank you girl....

please tell me

after read my mother blog.. tear roll down my cheek, painful memories coming back again... try to start to shatter my heart to pieces again... they say time will heal... NO! the pain will stay with u always.... is not about wat content say... is wat thing happen in my life

2006-07-21T00:48:00.000+08:00

i am sorry.. i jus have to say that...

about my hong kong trip... oh is sux... is like wasting my time there.. i rather stay in singapore and find myself a job... didn't have the time do some shopping... didnt get to go to the place i wan.... like mong kok, Toys street and more.... haiz..... went there and renew my ID card.... celebrated my grandma's birthday.... she seen happy about it....

miss my girls.... miss my sister..... miss the gays.... miss my friend.... miss a lot of ppl during the holiday....Sorry girl.. never got u anything... came back trying to find myself a part-time job to earn some pocket money... i am so lack of vitamin M ($$$).... i wan to do some shopping man....

how i spend my school holiday? staying at home and rot... school is starting soon.... asking myself y do ITE's holiday is so short or am i too greedy? i think i need to stop here, goin to sleep soon

2006-07-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

jus come back from my 4T1 class chalet.... around 12 something.... some of them still in the chalet enjoying themselves.... hmm... must be having mahjong ba..... have a lot of fun... is like such a long time since we meet... didnt get a chance to meet eva, jun hou and the malay ppl... thankx guy for caughting the KAH KAH.... all thankx to rayner who bought the kah kah in! wahahaha!!! anyway he kill the kah kah... hahaha...thankx to song yee, guo yao, tian hou and greg for bbq food for us.... hahaha... thankx greg, rayner, chun yin and yasel for teaching me how to play mahjong....(not hand on yet!... hehe) thanks to alvin, jianliang, chun yin, edwina, siew yin for sending us to the bus stop.... happy birthday to nee rong and wei ting.... didnt get a chance to talk to everyone... sorry about that.... really miss u ppl badly.... all most wanted to cry at the bus stop... did bare to leave so early.... luckily didnt, too many ppl there... don wan to make a fool of myself... becoz really very long since we have that much of fun althought is jus that short period of time... in the bus, bao yu, yasel and i keep chating.... all the way too bishan... is been a long time since we have a proper chat.... really looking forward to the next gathering... hahaha..... or should go to chalet again tomoro? hehehe...

2006-07-04T02:12:00.000+08:00

cant sleep so come and blog.... watch the jy gave me that team medical dragon... donno wat to do now... tomolo goin to the secondary school class chalet, meeting my friend at 2pm.... don feel like goin due to some reason.... need to go to school on wed for extra lesson... hiaz..... donno wat to blog leh... okay end here la

2006-07-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh!! I AM SO HIGH NOW!!!!!
WOOoooooow!~ Ahahahaha after watching teppei in youtube.... WOOoooooow!~ WOOoooooow!
i cannot stop HIGHing..... oh my gosh... he so handsome!!~ okay okay start blogging leh

30 jun 06
DONT say i never blog leh! today i goin to blog alot of thing... wahaha! okay i start with wif i meeting gens go shop shop first.... wait for jy and yf to go to mise, becoz jy say that mise opening today... waited for so long... mise haven open yet... so decided to have our lunch first at friends... and oso wait rine and bee to arrive.... after that OF COZ go back to mise la... wahahaha... Oh my GOSH..... jy is so high man... hehe... i myself oso got so high, coz very never long go mise leh..... I want WaT live vol 4 dvd... teppei inside very cute and handsome...AAAAAAAhHHHHHHHhhhhhh! jy bought alot of lead photo and 1 teppei photo....
i came out wif empty handed... sad :'( ....... and of sudden jy give me that teppei pic... oh my god! so HAPPY! jy i don think u heard me say thank you rite, i think u will talking to yf or rine....
and here i want to say arigatou to JY for the photo and lending me team medical dragon drama, to rine arigatiou for u Huggs and sorry about the thing inside my bag. i really never heard you. Gomenne. to gens hate u for saying my hand look like the fo shou... dream of the fo shou chasing me that nite LLLLEEEEeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh...

from the bottom of my heart arigatou to everyone (^-^)

1 july 06

meet my mother for breakfast. have laksa.... waiting for jy and yf infront of the japanese school with my mom..... saw sasaki sensai walks toward the school and suddenly she saw me and was shock to see me, becoz no class for today... call jy and yf to tell them... i think that the school left out our name... again the school is moving to haw par tower... so sad that i cannot join kit u guy today. go to visit my mom's friend house, becoz she was not feeling will demo we have a great talk... ahhaha tomolo my dad bday and need to check the rates for HKG ticket.... i think tomoro i will be very busy ba... got alot of thing to do leh.... -.-

2006-06-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

decided not go to school today, becoz i don think teachers will teach any way, and partly no badminton... YAP... i am goin to hong kong again... to celebrate my grandma birthday... this year 90th.... hahaha.... tomolo goin to 'friend' and have my lunch.... and where the hell is mise... i wan my WaT dvd

2006-06-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

hi~~ i am back.... hehe... i been a long time seen i blog... cause i really donno wat to blog, i donno wat can blog and wat cannot blog...

had my accounting CA test today, i think i am goin to fail... and i donno y i don have the mood to study... all of sudden, i lost my interest in studying... i feel like giving up.... i keep telling myself not to do that... keep telling myself to cherish it.... i try to make myself study... but i cant!!! nothing is goin in to my brain... mayb i not comfortable with class or i am not use to this kind of school life....

2006-03-08T13:34:00.000+08:00

wahaha... at last i hand her the my resignation letter... i am free... so happy... And my last day is on the 20th mar... then i have badminton, kbox, shopping... haha result coming out soon... praying hard... when is my WaT ablum coming?....

2006-03-01T11:07:00.000+08:00

wahaha.... release of WaT ablum...... very soon i will GET my cd....... i want WaT posters.... wan them desperately....trying to write a resign letter and thinking how to say it to her..... so worry and scare..... but it better this way then working in this kind of environment... really wan to go back to study.... and very confuse rite now.... donno wat is the rite way to choose..... now all i can to do is HAPPY GO LUCKY.....

2006-02-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

now a days i keep cursing and swearing... all thank to her... she always pissing me off..... no matter wat... i goin to quit and find a better job.... but first i need to find a job b4 i quit.... i need to save some money for my hong kong trip...

2006-02-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

haha.... so happy got my WaT limated single.... wahaha... waitin for WaT ablum to release.... 1 march..... i want quit... QUIT QUIT QUIT.... and find a better job.... can some one help me...... i don wan to stay i this company

2006-02-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

few more minutes end of brithday.... 18 leh.... nothing special.... jus another ordinary day....
thank guy who celebrate my bday.... thanks alot... really very tried of workin in a office..... i hate to work in a small office.... don like to be ofice girl... and work till half dead

AGAIN i am in love

2006-01-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh... i am in love wif teppei and alan... oh my gosh..
teppei is so cute....and my alan is so bloody man.... cant imagine life wifout them... my life will be in darkness... tomolo goin to send my alan off toHKG... i goin to miss him... i wan to go to taka to get my teppei book and boku no kimochi single. who can accompany me.....

2005-10-21T12:55:00.000+08:00

having lunch and updating my blog at same TIME... tried of eatin out.... all the msg and msg make me think of some body... hahaha... very long never saw him leh... donno if alive or die.....it been a long time since i blog..... jus finish chating with jy and realisa that it been 3 week since i met them..... time flyes.... 3 week left in the company... and i will be free again... hate to be in office... hate to read all of the document... time up.... need to go back to work... YUCK!!!

2005-09-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

Don have to pick up any enquiry calls tomoro.... no need to be in the front line tomoro... wahaha..... wanna watch corpse bride and red shoe.... watch a movie need to pay 10 buck... heart pain man.... i rather buy the vcd, more worth it.... everthing need $$.... no $$ no talk... so happy that i pass my japanese test.... feel like goin to train this friday, so sad that i cannot take leave.... claudia signing out

2005-09-27T00:56:00.000+08:00

Wa!! todae damn bloody stressful..... keep picking up calls about enquiry and one unique customer keep calling and calling!!! say will get back to him by 3!!! don understand english izzit, do i have to speak tamil to him.... don feel like goin to work tomoro... tried of the phone rings... goin to have phone phobe soon....

lately, thinking of goin overseas to study.... studying in singapore take a long time to get a degree or so ever(u may disagree with me).... think of studying hairstyling or jus study in any of the school there...... no comment or objection from my parents... seen to be supportive.... but do their pocket supportive?

IN THE END the percentage of goin oversea is 0%

if i have the chance, i go... but i will miss everthing here.....

2005-09-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

very long never blog leh.... donno wat to blog.... on attachment now no time to blog.... 9 to 6, monday to friday.... very tired... now watchin prince turn to frog... very funny, like the song very much...

2005-08-17T03:14:00.000+08:00

feel left out.. donno wat's goin on.... donno wat to say, donno wat to do, feel empty, confuse and blue... jus feel wierd an odd... donno wat is truth and wat is fake? i not talking about bag by the defination of truth and fake between ppl?... or and i think too much?.....

2005-08-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

tryin to control my temper, tryin hard to change it, tryin to be better person, tryin and tryin and tryin.... keep tryin put myself in other people shoe... try to undersatnd other.....understand and understand... and think how other people look at me.... wat can i do?

2005-08-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

few day never blog leh and donno wat to blog... this few day very hot-temper and stress.... jus wanna say sorry to all my friend, and thank you for understanding me..... can't stand mrs s**n(duckfy duck) keep on nag and nag, if as ppl will listen to her..... really donno wat to write.... no inspiration......

2005-07-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

have to wake up 5.30am tomolo....need to reach school by 7.30am....goin to malacca tomolo with the whole class... haven make my potato salad yet... to lazy to make.... may be later ba... mayb after inuyasha and shaman king.... when i have the time... feelin excited.... haven complete my shopping list yet...wondering wat to buy oso!... and worry about my interview on saturday as travel agent(attacment)....

2005-07-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

i have enough of the arguement... donwan to be in the middle any more..... in the end i am the one who suffer the most....

Change Of Blog SKINS

2005-07-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

wahahaha.... Love is dead.... haha... my new blogskins...nice ba...ok l... i oso donno wat type

2005-07-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

oh see Him again when i having S & W.... WaHaHa..... toatally melt! AAAAHHHHH!!!! hope to see him again

2005-07-13T12:31:00.000+08:00

So happy! So happy today!!!!!!!!!!! wahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Saw HIM when i go to the toliet..so long never saw HIM liao..... Got so high and excited.. AHHHH! Seeing him from far really make me happy... OMG! MELT liao... feel like goin to the toliet again... i think HE will be there till 4pm ba...

my blog

2005-07-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

wahaha..... at last my blog is done, all thanks gen an jia yee...wahaha so happy...