really very tire ah.... wake up 9.30... left the house at 10.... go school to pay school fee... i noe i noe, y didnt i go to AXS to pay? cause my dad wrote a cheque.... so need to go to school and pay.... then go dover to pass him the money and then rush to work.... WAHLAO!! really cant stand that NUI MO WANG ah..... keep selling and snatch customers... then after work go starbuck and have a drink.... then slowly walk to bus stop and jus to take the last bus..... look up to sky to see the moon and star.... tonite sky very clear... can see star and moon hehehe

ok.... sorry i have take back some of the words in the few previous post..... "but i donno how.... anyway no one would wanna noe wat happen to me... no one will wan care....."

the fact is that i really don wan anyone to.... ANYONE... cause i cant believe it happen in my life.... and it become my nightmare....


(clearing the throat) i think i mistaken by wat i say in the previous post.... I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM..... is not wat u think is it.... jus that i am very curious about him.... and i admire him.... i jus think we have a lot of thing in commens.... and i jus realise recently... tomoro workin 12 need to go and sleep le....
I would want to live longer...


hiaz... he make my heart ache...... he make me feel like crying... and make me feel that i am not alone.... and make feel like i am a better person... but he makes me very confuse.... he makes me think a lot.....he makes me wan to know more about him..... so feel like clubbing... so feel like drinking... so feel like crying.....
I would want to live longer...


cant sleep... still need to work tomoro.... still cant sleep....

no matter how strong a person is, there is time they cant take it anymore... jus like a rubber band, if u pull it to it limit, it will snatch... no matter how u tolerent, one day u jus cant stand it anymore... y must i have to be so painful?... i wan stop it.... but i donno how.... anyway no one would wanna noe wat happen to me... no one will wan care..... i m jus an extra...

no matter how i try.... i still end crying in the slience..... keep all the thing to myself.... no more strength to hang on... to trie... "being happy or sad, is really up to u" i agree.... but how.... leave the past behind and be happy.... i try that... no use... thing will remind me of the past.... how can i stop my tear.....

will be the dead be remember?
I would want to live longer...


now i in POM class... David chin not here yet... ask us to do our project but all my memeber not here.... got nothing to do... so come and blog.... wish i can go home now, waste of my time.... later still need to go and work le... haiz.... hope i wish i can travel.... mayb cannot go to hong kong... sobbing.... need to drive my dad crazy to let me go.... i really feel like goin to redang.... i really feel like join them... can go there relex and destress... but very extra lor.... Redang a ready sunny enough... ask another light bulb go very extra lo... they suggest to ask the LXL go... crazy ah... please lo, as if he will go like that... Ya, onli in my dream LXL will go lo... hehehe.... watever... i noe is impossible, i will jus keep dreaming.... :)
I would want to live longer...


how i wish to end my ITE life soon... i dislike this kind of school life.... the more i think of it the more i hate it.... or should i say i hate everything, every single thing...

holiday is coming and how i wish i don have to conatct anyone.... i wan to be all by myself.... no handphone no computer nothing....

i jus hate myself... all i been through and wat do i get in return... PAIN AND HATE.... am i a fool to u.... how i wish i can lost contact with the world.....
I would want to live longer...


trie tire so tire.... so now i am in SR 2 having web... she haven start lesson yet.... i hope can end lesson early.... this day really in a very bad shape, mentally and phsically.... mentally, i can break down any time and any where.... mayb due to mentally problem my body don feel quite well oso.... from last week i start throw out.... i feel disgusted when i saw food or feel like throwing out .... lost appetite and so on.....

later need to go to town and collect my choker then go to work le... sian ah.. i still haven started my project.... donno can finish a not... got to go end here
I would want to live longer...


now i in sr 2 having my OA... teacher haven start lesson... haven had anything till now... later goin to work... tomolo got POM progress test... haven study yet...prepare to fail the test... next week POM CA le... no time to study siaaaa... haiz.... this few day feel down.. donno y oso..... wan to be all alone... i feel nothing now... i don feel a feeling for him... my mind is very clear now.... now i waiting for friday to come... jus to confirm it.... really very sleepy.... goin to sleep le... update next time...
I would want to live longer...


2 of june is the sweeter day i even have..... haha... mayb to other is jus nothing but to me so is very sweet le...

wake up in the morning the first person who appear in mind is him... i was shock but that... and i didn't think so much, so go and prepare for work... out of the house, my instinct tell me that today i should take MRT to work, but i didn't follow my instinct... so went to take bus.... on the way to bus stop i start getting and getting to excited.(because he is coming to work place and buy bag) while i waiting for my bus to come, he gave me a call and ask where am i.... and say that he reach there.... and we jus start chatting..... End up meeting him at my work place's bus stop.... so we walk together to my workplace.... this was part of it.... Because wat happen that day, i saw the cute side of him.... when i reach home i start smsing him... i was so high that i have problem go to sleep....

3 of june
after work went for dinner... cause today was to busy, no time to eat.... we have sting ray, sotong, kang kong and chicken wing with yee, fang, wei ling and benny..... the guy have to go back first because they need to catch the last train.... after the guy go, we start to have our girl talk... after that we taxi home...

reach home and thought about everything.... he is treating everyone so nice... same time really make ppl misunderstand it... the past few day i am leaving in the fantay... and i noe thing will never happen the way i wan.... if thing really happen, he way too good for me... and i don wish to go through all suffering...so i decided to leave the fantasy world and go back to reality....
I would want to live longer...