lose today and yesterday match... really not happy with myself.... everyone is say that we never communicate.... and play our own game... i really not happy with myself liao.... i donno where i can vain all my frustration... i don wish to vain my anger to anyone... bruise on my leg and arm i didnt got them during my match... i hit myself with my racket because i didnt do well.... i bite myself because i donno where can i vain my frustration to.... y do it have to be like that... y when i needed someone the most... no one is with me..... y do i have to go through all by myself... this is not the first time... and this is not the worse one.... i cant find someone to talk.... when i need them the most... they are not free..... so feel like crying.... but my tear don wish to roll out.... is struck inside... i wan to cry out loud... so feel like cry out loud.... all i need is a pair of ear and shoulder at right time... haiz.... mayb i jus under stress... after the badminton.... went to have dinner at the coffee shop.... and took coach car home.... really like taking coach car... cause all ur problem will gone.... if anyone got the chance to sit on his car then u noe wat i meant.... haiz... still got presentation and project to hand up... this Friday dead line.... i don think i can sit for my exam.... attend not enough ah... i think i will get debar.... donno since when do they change the system to 95 percent instead to 85 percent.... haiz... really very sian ah.... i wanna die le....
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19 Aug Sunday

meet yasel at bishan... cause she got free ticket to watch Bourne Ultimatum at vivo... ques to collect the ticket.. and we bought Popcorn, two drink, cheese hot dog and nacho.. didn't watch that movie... yasel tend to sleep through the whole movie, cause she didn't get the chance to sleep.. i wanted to watch but end up sleeping too....we will to near to the screen.... and it made me feel very giddy so went to sleep.... after that had Carl junior for dinner... took a cab to yasel work place... she need to work today... so accompany to her work place and later on i left to go to some where else.... i went to the east part of Singapore... haha... very east... went to look for someone.... that someone don believe i at his/her house down stair... haha... i am pretty happy today......

18 Aug Saturday

nothing much.... today heard fireworks during work... haha.. how i wish i can go watch it.... after work go to golden mile with yasel and her mum... go disco..... first time wore slipper and Bermudas to club.. -.- it was fun haha.... when home around 4 plus...

17 Aug Friday

finish my project very very last minute... haiz... very got for OA this morning.. onli go for POM... go for POM for 5 minutes. Mr chin release us.... then head to Dover.... yee and rine match is a pity... all thank to the F___ing umpire.... after badminton dao liang at lot 1... dao liang got infection, his toe is rotting.... hahah and have KFC

u can see wat she is trying to say....

talk to rine on the phone

too bore... so take photo

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too busy leh.... no time to update.. haiz too many things happen... haiz... this whole week badminton matches... my matche is on Thur and Fri... wish me luck.... the whole week i have AL to cover me... hehe... very stress ah... Mon to Fri got Dover, still need to go to school in morning.... sat and sun still need to work.... still projects to rush... haiz... one on the 17 Aug (POM) and 24 Aug (Web)
this Monday(13 Aug) is very sad for me... today i oso realize that...... all the words he say that day keeps repeating my mind... and is still repeating in my mind now.... i jus simply cant forget the words... after badminton went to pasir ris.... and things never stop there... Tues and today i keep listening to one song namie amuro "should i love him?" Tuesday i reach Dover early... i was too early... no one was a round... onli coach and him... didnt wanted to face him... so went to the stage behind and isolate... keep listening the i song mentions jus now... think a lots....
For today i still listening the song while i m blogging.... the whole day i been listening to this song....
this time i not goin to run away... i will face it al the way... that wat i think at the moment... i still cant commit... i got a lot of question to ask him.... i donno where to start and i donno how to ask him... i don have the coverage.... all sudden, everything become sour.... haiz... i really don wish to see him tomoro.... cause i jus cant concentrate...

that is wat huilan draws on my winter melon drink during chin's class


that wat i have on monday, after all the sad thing... haiz

picx on 8 Aug

the Au's sisters singing their song

Guess whose foot is that (fang and mine)

fang and me









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nothing much today... late for web for 1 hour... cause i sleep at around 6 am.... lunch go IMM and eat....after school go orchard with Debra and Mabel.... spend again... don have enough money to survive this month... confirm! wed goin to MOS... is will b a long day for me... school then k session then training then MOS... thinking wanna meet someone for breakfast a not... wahaha... how i wish can go watch hanabi with someone on 9 aug.... fat hope
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early in the morning, i feel crazy... hahaha... cause for the continues days i dream of the same person.... and that make me feel a bit crazy.... before i sleep last night..... i paste this in front of my door


cause i know that my dad will surely wake me up and ask me the reason y i no need to work today while i am sleeping...
haha.. goin out with mummy today... head for Japanese food today at Shaw tower.... the food is nice....


then go to toa payoh to get my contact lens done.... need to go to collect another boxes on wed... spend almost 200 dollar today... almost i spend all my pay.... sob... donno how to survive this month... sob
tomoro still need to go to school still haven sleep... hehe
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3 Aug friday

no need to go to school today... no class... so happy... no david chin and no cythia classs. wahaha... sleeep all the way untill my dad start to nag(nag me y i still don wan to wake up) .... feel so realex today...stay at home and do housework... then meet jia yee and fang around 7 plus almost 8.... walk around at bugis... and had mcdonald... then went to take pay and walk around again... then go for seafood... happy birthday to ah han... hope u enjoy urself...









4 Aug Sat

working today... haha.. saw siew yin this morning... haha... and she come and see me during her lunch break.... i was shock to see, i tot her off work le...then later gen came.... haha... so long never see her le... keep saying her hair like wig... cause like too long le.... happy to her... haha... then i the evening mabel come and see me... wahaha... today so many ppl come and see me le... wahaha... so good... but i oso realize that we cant let our gurad down.... cause there are ppl that we cannot trust.... then went o mcdonald again and chat... waited for very long then the bus come... and driver drive very slow ah... go and see star before go home.....
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in school now... finish my dreamweaver work... got nothing to do.. update blog... got a lot of photo to upload... hehe..

28 july

wake up around 9 plus... haha.. meeting my mummy for lunch then she will fetch me to the max pavillion for S.H.E fun party.... had vegeterian food for lunch... then took a rest in the car... cause still early donno where to go, then head to tampines IKEA... went walkin around... and then go to the cafe then to have my meatball and coffee.

mom had a apple and a tea... after that mummy send me to EXPO... reach around 6 and waited for 3 before the concert start.

the concert so so la.... not very high le.... although having VIP seat... debra and me
debra's and mine legs. hahaha... we are wearing black and red
(wondering whose finger is that... they belong to yu fang )after concert go to clark quay... haiz... forget to bring my IC a long... so go home and take IC... the STUPID TAXI DRIVER donnot how to drive wan ah... keep breaking.... before going to MOS... drank 5 cup of vodka with 7-up... abit drank... then go into MOS, so pack... dance with our bag abit werid lor... took a lot pic.... i not
good at taking photo hehe...





(took in the toilet)

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