late for POM lesson... luckily today rain ah... haha... if not that david chin goin to nag and nag... then go for OFA lesson... no lesson got the stupid talk... through the whole talk i go and sleep... then no WEB lesson... then reach dover very early 3 plus reach le... haha... no ppl and the hall is so cold.... surprise to see him wear so nice... but y is he not in shoe... haiz...

should or should not. i don think i have the courage... and feeling for him is so uncertain... if onli i have the couurage....
I would want to live longer...


today so sleepy so tired... never go for badminton.... reach home, go and sleep allllllllllllll the way till dinner time.... so pissed off by my dad.... pissed untill i cry.... luckily he left the house, if not i think i will go crazy ah.... jus clam down then he come back.. wah so angry.... see his face, my anger come back again... wahlao... can u jus stop ur nagging... keep on nag nag nag.... u not tire, i tire... is not like i not goin to do it.... hello, i big enough to make my own decision... y do u have to give me that kind a look saying that my decision is not a wise one.... stuck between the two of u is so tiring..... alway have to keep everything to myself..... i cant seek help from anyone.... feel so helpless.... cant both of u understand me a little more before u all start complaining....
I would want to live longer...


jus reach home not long ago... finish school around 2 plus... go self-acess room and play games... so sian.... 4 plus then head to dover for training... today training onli corrine and me... haiz.... this few day very moody... having problem controling my emotion... cry during training... no one noe ba... i oso donno y i cry... period period period when r u coming.... haiz... all the answers to my questions is answered.... all the things i curious about, i have find it out today... this should be the end...
I would want to live longer...


yesterday never go to school.... haha.... this month try my best not to skip any classes... late for POM... took a taxi to school 12 dollors.... haiz.... i cant hear the alarm rang this morning.... slept till 8.45.... and reach school at 9.15 am.... fast huh... from to toa payoh to clementi... lunch break went KFC with jia yee and her classsmates.... we all like crazy ppl like that.... haha... after WEB... wait for the guys untill very late 5.15 like that then decide to leave without them.... reach dover never have mixed vegetable rice... they say not having dinner.... but luckily not hungry... today not as tough as the other day... today quite releaxe... after traning... go home with empty stomach... actually wan to eat de... but yee they all wan to go tiong to eat.... so bo pian.... go home.... bought kuay jea....

wrote a comment to someone.. cause i think i really don have any other place to voice out...

the feeling for him is so uncertain... or i jus trying to deny it.... but i try to be honest to myelf.. i keep to telling myself to face reality by doing that i will reduce the pain.... at the very point, i am not hurt yet.... and i think i don wish too.....
till the day i go dover not getting nervous, that will be the day i a ready let go......
I would want to live longer...


reach home not long ago... about 12.45 am... have dinner after work.... harry potter movie session cancel.... instead of watching movie, we go and have seafood... wahaha... aunty treat all of us... the dinner cost $159.... 2 chillies crab, 2 black pepper crab, kang kong, salad you tai, hotplate sotong and butter cereal prawn.... tomoro work full... haiz...
I would want to live longer...


haha... haven sleep... cant sleep.... tomoro need to work 11... mayb after work aunty treating us to watch harry potter.... change my mind.. i think i not goin ba... down with flu and injury... my back, my ankle and feet still hurt.... haiz... is been a long day..... OA ca today.. late for the test.... is a easy papper... but don have any confindent to pass... cause never study.... after test go to clementi central for kfc.... haha no david chin lesson never come today so head for kfc... then go back to school.. still very early... have badminton training..... wahaha... today attendent VERY GOOD AH. hahaha.... use both hand can count ah... liang and kit never come and steamboat cancel.... then yasel ask me go watch Transformer with her and jacky.... but luckily jacky have wake up... then end cannot meet her oso.... but today training 6 then end... wahaha... no bad le... so little ppl still can training untill 6... after training, go and bath.... the worst thing ever happen to me.... while bathing , there is a frog in the cubical i am in... OMG.... i was bare, bathe half-way.... so helpless, keep scream for help.... if is a bug or cockroach, i wouldnt be that helpess... A FROG NO WAY.... in my entire life the thing i HATE THE MOST IS FROG!!!!! i keep screaming for help.... yee ask me kick it away... how to kick away, it is at the corner le... sure die... die never mind ah, WAT IF IT JUMP.... i cannot go any where le.... cause i am bare... i never feel so helpless before.... sob... hurry finish bathing and run ah.... then went home.... wahlao sudden feel so blue on my way home..... and it turn to bad mood ah.... so bad mood that i buy so much food....

2 popiah, 1 chendo, 1 fried carrot cake, 1 mee poh.....havin my dinner almost.... luckily never ah.... cause i wanna cry that time.... my dad walk out from his room..... wahlao i tot no one at home..... need to sleep... byebye
I would want to live longer...


in school updateing my blog....

7 july, Saturday

today is 070707... oso my brother's birthday.... went to visit my brother alone... didnt tell my dad that i goin.... heart ache

8 july, Sunday

Sunday, never work today... meet mother and mak uncle and his family for lunch... after lunch went for shopping at centre... bought a red shoe... hehe.. quite like it... saw esther and jermery.... tot buying that top.... but very ex..... 65.90 for that top but it from japan... then have japan food for dinner.... i like that resturant.... it have very nice view.... will upload the picture later today...

9 july, Monday

school reopen.... almost cant wake up for school... my alarm rang 7.15.... my mind was think"still early, wake up at 8.30 oso can" i almost forgotten that today school reopen.... tot goin to work today...haha... luckily wake up and go to school on time.... hahaha
I would want to live longer...


5 july

bad luck.... real bad luck... things not goin smoothly.... thing didnt happen the way i wanted.... sad.... but never mind..... i am one step closer.... sprain my ankle during bad... went to chalet..... i noe a lot of thing and catch up with my girls.....

6 july

today work suck... really suck.... my sale suck.... everthing sux.... one day this friendship may end due to this person.... but i hope this day will never come.... jus realise that my ankle and my feet is swelling.... old injures.... if never take care properly..... few week cannot go badminton..... :(


tomoro bro's birthday..... feel really very bad... feel very sorry.... feel very sad.... cause how can i forget him birthday..... really sorry really sorry... very long never go down le.... feel really damn bad and sad... cry on my way home..... if tomoro late for work i oso don care..... i tomoro die die oso go down..... the more i thinkof him the more i miss him... love you....


got this from claudya blog.....

选择要单身的女生
觉得没有领外一半是自由的
选择要单身的女生
觉得自己 很独立
很轻松

我有听说过
单身的女生 一开始会觉得很自由
很独立
很轻松

但过了一些 期間
自由 独立 轻松的 感觉
慢慢变酸了

那曾经很自由的女生
最后感觉到的不是独立
而是 寂寞

我在洗手间时
问她，"为什么?"
她却回不答什么因为
她应该是爱想太多吧
哈， 觉得她好傻
但还是要问，她。。
到底怎么了?
我。。
怎么回事?

do u feel that way??
honestly,





















































i do
but don any how get a boyfriend, jus because u feel this way......
I would want to live longer...